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Words cannot even begin to describe a man that lit up a room when he
walked in it. His smile made you smile, his laugh, well when I hear it in my head now, tears come to my eyes, because I always thought I would hear it for the rest of my life. This kind, caring person who welcomed me into his family and treated me like his own, and expected everyone else to do the same, went to a place where he could be free to laugh and sing with the ANGELS. I wonder if he knew how much I really loved him, that I would trade places with him in a minute, just so he could see my children grow. I know in my heart he watches over them, just like he did when he was here. I always think to myself
ONE MORE DAY,ONE MORE TIME,ONE MORE SUNSET MAYBE I'D BE SATISFIED, BUT THEN AGAIN I KNOW WHAT THAT WOULD MEAN, KEEP ME WISHING ONE MORE DAY with him.
The last day I spent with him is a day I'll never forget, He asked me to promise I would always take care of my kids, be there for them right or wrong, Good or Bad love them no matter what, and to take care of his son Joe Jr, because he would need me when he was gone. To be strong for the both of us, I've kept my promise so far, the only thing I can't seem to do is make his son realize that just because his dad isn't here physically, doesn't mean he isn't in our hearts all the time. I know he comes to visit us, to check and see if we're doing ok,because once in a while I find a penny on the floor HEADS UP! (My dad always tells us they're pennies from heaven.) I'll never forget the love that my father-in-law gave to me, I think of that every time I feel sad because he's not here. He would want us to be happy, and go on. Even though it's a hard thing to do. It's been 2 1/2 years, but it seems like only yesterday. I guess we never get over a loss of someone we love, we just try and adapt. The world still keeps turning and they're not in it. Joe Sr. was someone who would always walk beside you, not in front of or behind. Now he just carries us, because he is an ANGEL with wings. I think he has carried his son quiet a few times and me too. OUR GUARDIAN ANGEL. This letter brings me comfort, because I can talk about someone who made a difference in my life, gave me The Love of My Life, his SON.Loved my two kids with an unspeakable LOVE. The last few months of his life, he always cried because he knew he wouldn't get a chance to see them Graduate or get Married, but you see now HE will because he see's everything. And will guide them in the right path. My kids will one day know that GRANDPA JOE was ONE OF A KIND. I hope one day everyone will be blessed just like I was, to have a person like that in your life.
REST IN PEACE....FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS.. JOE D.BENAVIDEZ Sr.
I Love You Always... Your Daughter-In-Law Lisa. M. Benavidez
MAY 29th, 2002
Dad,
Happy Birthday!! Happy Birthday!! (BESOS): * I woke up thinking about you 2day,wondering if you were laughing and smiling down on us! There is so much I want to tell you about our life and the boys, but I am sure you already know. I miss giving you a BIG KISS on the cheek and a BIG HUG! Sharing your Birthday Cake with you. The phones call first thing in the morning! To wish you a GOOD DAY! I just do it in my heart now.. The boys and I are going to this function called RELAY 4 LIFE. It honors people who are Cancer Survivors and those who have past away from it. We are going in your honor, going to light a Lumanaria for you and Grandpa Florencio and Grandma Della, tell them that ok. Something is telling me that I need to, that you would like that. I really, really have been missing you a lot lately, my heart feels sad. Probably because I know your Birthday is here. Guess what, We went out on Saturday Night and drank our selves silly! You would have laughed at us! Then of course gave us the LECTURE! (HAHA!!) Jr says I went sailing with CAPTAIN MORGAN! (HAHAHA!!) We danced like crazy, laughed, had a good OLE' time! Night went by too fast! But you know what, at the end of the night when I got home, I cried my eyes out for you, bet you thought I was crazy huh? I cried until I couldn't cry anymore. Jr told me to chill, guess he must be afraid to show how he really feels, huh? So I cry for the both of us. Maybe that's why I don't drink very often, because I know what follows! (besides the hang-over).Drunk or Sober, I still cry, just more when I am Alcohol Fueled! Yes, I do tie one on once in a while! but I know you see that! Did you like your page? It is AWESOME! I go into it every chance I get, just to see your picture! O:) My Angel! DID YOU EVER KNOW THAT YOURE MY HERO? AND EVERYTHING I'D LIKE TO BE, I CAN FLY HIGHER THAN AN EAGLE, YOU ARE THE WIND BENEATH MY WINGS!
Dad, Give me some strength, I feel I have none.. The strong person I thought I was doesn't exist. I thought I would be OK, and then (poof)! it hit me like a ton of bricks! Help me, Help me!! (Tears, tears, tears) You are my guider, guide me, show me the way.. People tell me all I can do is pray for you.. I do that everyday, I really do. Well enough mushy stuff, my intention with this is to wish u the BESTEST BIRTHDAY!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!! TE AMO!! : * CATCH YOU ON THE FLIP SIDE!!!
I LOVE YOU ALWAYS,
Lisa Marie Silva Benavidez.....................
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